This is a song that I wrote a few years back–I’m sure there are those that remember it–I’d post on that thread but it cannot be found–I never had the courage or patience before to get the whole thing recorded properly. The words have hard for me to listen to because of how personally emotional they are–I’d usually get choked up whenever I’d try to sing this song.
The equalization of my vocals seems to be a little off, there are some distortion problems in a couple spots, and the guitar solo has too much reverb and it is a little bit sharp in pitch, meaning I’ll have to redo the solo, and one of the bridges has harmonies that the timing is off.
http://kizzume.com/sl/an-argument-testmix.mp3
I’ll post the final version in this thread when I’m finally done with it. I’ve been working on this recording almost nonstop since yesterday, minus sleep and eating. There are only a small handful of things that need to be worked on in it–I think–unless there are some blatant things that I need to change via things that people here may notice.
I’ve been going to NA meetings for the past 2 1/2 months, they’ve been changing me tremendously. I’m on Seroquel for my bi-polar issues, it has been a godsend, but my panic/anxiety issues were taking me over, I had considered a couple weeks ago after one of the worst panic attacks I’d ever had (and being that I’m a recovering addict, and being that the only medications that could take care of the kind of panic I had were “take as needed” medications, I felt I was headed for agoraphobia) and then after a long cry in the shower until the water was cold, I had an epiphany: What other people think of me is none of my business and I proceeded to read a book entitled “What you think of me is none of my business”. It’s NICE when people like me, and I’m not going to go out of my way to make people dislike me, but obsessing on what other people MIGHT be thinking about me is just a downward spiral. Having that realization and reading that book changed my life in a matter of a few days.
I can look people in the eye when talking to them, I can talk in front of a group of people without looking like I’m about to go in the corner and rock back and forth.
Another thing that has happened since February is that I realized that I really enjoyed being heavy. I also was getting TONS of health issues associated with when I was dieting. I’m back up to 250 pounds and have really enjoyed it. Coming out about enjoying being heavy was a “huge weight” off my shoulders, to make a really bad pun.
This week I realized what it has been that people meant by when I do my own music, I tend to hold back on the vocals, that sometimes they’re not very emotional: I had been holding back my own vocal stylizations out of the same kind of fear that my panic/anxiety around people had been from. I plan on never doing that again–if my stylizations are too weird for people, it shouldn’t matter to me.
Anyway, this is a long message, but I wanted to give an update on how I’ve been doing as well as finally showing that I’m trying to deliver on my promises that I would finish that song. I think it is one of my best pieces of work, at least, in my opinion–but often the opinion of artists is completely contrary to the listeners. LOL
