I recently wrote on reddit about selling my gear, so I thought I’d make a return to the Renoise forum and share the story here:
I’ve been making electronic music since the 90s, and collecting gear ever since. I always got excited by new gear, and owning the classics - I loved buying new synths and drum machines, and I firmly believed this got me closer to what I wanted. I slowly realised in recent months that this is not true, and while I had built an impressive collection of incredible music gear - I’d also slowly built a lot of guilt and feelings of inadequacy along with them.
I released a few tracks, played and DJ’d live a lot, and even had a song pressed to vinyl last year - but I feel like I was always chasing a dream of being a producer who ‘makes it’ and I fully admit that is not my skill set at all, and that change has been very liberating.
All the times I moved house with boxes of gear (lets say 20-30 synths at any one time, including Volcas etc) I felt a new sense of starting again with my music. The music came with it, but certainly not on a professional level. I loved making music as a hobby and a form of escapism, but I didn’t ever cut it professionally - though I had all the toys the best producers used. Yet I still felt like I could justify the expenditure and space.
I found through VJing that I could express myself very easily and clearly - and people loved it, more than anyone had loved my tracks!!
Don’t get me wrong, I love making electronic music and still perform live… I just now know EXACTLY what I need to do it, and it isn’t very much at all.
I wanted to share this because I think some people may similar urges to buy gear which aligns them with the success of others. That perceived success may not feel the same way that it looks to us when and if we get there. We all have talents in something, we’re all experts in some area and producing electronic music is not mine, and I am ready to admit that - while laughing at all the times I pretended I was, to myself and others!
I am not suggesting anyone else needs to do what I did.
Enjoy making music! Do what you love!
Read the full post on reddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/synthesizers/comments/19f6dhp/i_sold_almost_all_of_my_music_gear_and_it_feels/
Good to be back here too!!
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