I personally stopped trying to analyse everything too much a long time ago. To me it’s just a thing that I have to do, like eating or sleeping. My mind is constantly active and filled with strange rhythms, so I’m really just trying to get those ideas out and express them somehow. Most importantly, I do it for myself and for my own enjoyment, not for any kind of gain or recognition. It’s nice when other people enjoy what I do, and sure it would be nice to put out some real world releases now and then, but it’s not something I concern myself with or waste time stressing about. Whatever happens happens. In the meantime, I am just enjoying it for myself.
I compose to let out my hidden feelings, and later on i might realize what the song was all about (song name, lyrics etc.). it’s strange. I also make more popular music rarely for other people though have this style of building tracks I like. Also it’s my nr#1 hobby.
I really don’t know why Because ‘Why?’ is the most difficult question to answer and I really don’t know.
Maybe there are so many different reasons why, but maybe there is only one but very complicated one… Hmm.
Let’s just say I LOVE MAKING MUSIC (because love is almost complicated enough to answer this).
Just doing it for my own enjoyment.
Will probably fix a webpage sooner or later to dump whatever tunes get done with no real expectation of money, fame or women
Which is the way I’ve done it since mid -90’s when I started to track in Scream Tracker 1 and used BBS’s to spread the tunes.
But if someone enjoy something I’ve enjoyed creating then of course that is a small boost of self confidence and purpose.
But again that is not why.
The why would be for the goose bumps when I’ve figured out a tune that I like or finaly nailed the last chord/key/whatever.
Sometimes that happens just by accident, which kind of add to the mystery of sound and music
I do aesthetic stuff to stay sane, as for music in particular, I’ve done it so long now I don’t think I’d function properly without it. I do it 100% for myself, but, if other people enjoy it, all for the better.